What Would I Do If You Came Back?

I don’t get awkward about things so often anymore but that thought makes me really uneasy.

I know why I’m not in a relationship. Because I am actually terrified of commitment.

Fall is coming Winter is coming and I still look gross all the time.

That was all a blur and I don’t think you’ll understand that or what I mean.

I wish people would stop having this concept that someone else is going to fill them up with happiness.
Don’t make someone your crutch.
It’s okay to want to be happy with someone but don’t consider someone a “thing” that makes all your problems go away.

I think I’m going to lose like 75-100 pounds so no one recognizes me anymore. Then I’m gonna move far away and only tell my family.